I am not alone

Bismillah

Things already complicated and now it become more complicated. I never imagine that someone will make up nonsense story about myself. I know there is a type of someone that will make up a nonsense story about others, but I've never imagine that this time it will be mine. 

Frankly, it does hurt me inside, really much~.

How should I overcome this matter when I don't have anyone beside me. They all gone. I was left behind. Yes, that is my choice to be alone. Because I keep making a mistakes about trusting people.

That is why, I choose to be alone.

It does feel strange. My whole world become silent, become dark. I keep laughing by myself when watching movies. Just to put a show that i'm strong enough to overcome this matter.

I can't bear this alone. It feels like I want to leave everything here and postpone my diploma. I want to return home quickly. Because I have someone who will always hear my story with all her heart. 

Yes!!, my mum~ :')

I keep motivate myself to be strong, to be patient and faced everything in front of my way. Just as my mum said. But, I really need some help here. I don't know who should I trust. And that day just come when I read my tafseer.

He tell me, you and everyone of us,


يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اسْتَعِينُوا بِالصَّبْرِ وَالصَّلاَةِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ
"O you who have believed, seek help through patience and prayer. Indeed, Allah is with the patient." (Qur'an 2 : 153)


ALLAH~ :')

You want me to seek help from You
You want me to be patient
You want me to pray

Then, I will
Indeed, it is You :))

Thank you for everything Ya Allah :')

(Kalau Allah bagi ujian dekat kita, maknanya Dia sayangkan kita. Dia nak tengok sejauh mana kita boleh hadapi ujian itu. Jadi, kenalah kuat. ye?^^)